Dear You

I was in LA yesterday and everything seemed to bring me back to us. Why is that?

I was in Pasadena, the place where I felt your presence before you even said “hi”. I ate at one of your favorite restaurants for the first time and at first bite I knew why the place please your palette. I saw a preview of a movie and your name was in the title.

Then the funniest thing…while waiting for valet after dinner, I realized that I had just dined at the same restaurant we dined in years ago when it was a different restaurant altogether. The valet couldn’t confirm but I know I’m right.

My friend told me that maybe these were all signs that the universe will bring us back together soon.

What do you think?

back to you

they mentioned your name today and all of a sudden i’m missing you all over again. and that look that you had only for me. and all the things about you that drove me crazy. i can’t help but smile about the latter.

it’s funny because i think we have more in common now…beer, wine, food. also, i know myself better now, more feisty even (which for some reason i think you would appreciate).

3 years later and i’m back to you. why is that?

Our song

As I was walking home, our song came on Pandora. I wondered if you ever think of me when you hear it. I wondered if you smiled or cringed or missed me.

And an hour later you tell me you are happily dating.

Dear Universe,

I take it back. That little epiphany I had earlier this year about being ready to meet “the one”, I take that shit back.

I’m done with misreading signals and too quickly applying a “fairy tale” ending to what clearly is not a fairy tale.

I’m also done with being the idiot who didn’t see the end result coming. Yep, just like the girls who run into a secluded area or room without a window to get away from psycho killer in horror movies.

So until I figure out how not to make romantic comedies out of documentaries … I take it back. “The one” just isn’t worth this feeling that right now I can only describe as disappointing and yucky. Yes, yucky.

i saw you today, in an old movie. and for a moment, you were mine again.

Next thing you know

"Time passes and next thing you know, your heart isn’t broken anymore." - Girl with Tiny Flower Tattoo

Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it.
Buddha (via buynothingnewforayear)
(Reblogged from buynothingnewforayear)

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if i could, i would spend one day cloud hopping and people watching with home made coffee (in a bottomless cup of course) in one hand and a french macaroon in the other. and maybe you as company. you could tell me your views on all things and i will probably disagree on half. that would be a great day.

i think that i hang on a little too tight, expect a little too much, and react a little too quick. i would like to learn to loosen my grip, let go of all expectations & assumptions, and think things over before reacting. this is the dream.

on being “that girl”

i’m done being that girl who finds herself saying, “why me?”, more often than not. instead i want to be the girl who says, “why not me?”.

not to say that i want to become conceited and/or over-confident; i just want to be the kind of girl who puts herself in the running because she believes in herself.

i want to be “that girl” who practices what she preaches.

photo series: same bench, different people #12